There's a very fine line between persistance and being a stalker. I think I am about to cross that line.
When you like someone, surely there should be some sort of handbook - answering those questions we all want to know the answer to, but are too embarrassed to ask.
How do you tell if they like you back?
When is it appropriate to ask someone out?
How often should you talk to them?
Should you ask for their number?
FEAR NO MORE, I have all the answers!
Just kidding. I don't. I wish I did. I really do. I honestly don't get how I can be so smart yet when it comes to relationships I'm clueless! Someone come and be my guardian angel and help me with boys, please? They're just so hard to figure out; wouldn't it be amazing if inside, they were just like girls, and they're just as nervous as I am to speak to me? It would feel wonderful that I'm not the only one who gets shy around him!
With relationships, it's hard to understand unless you've experienced it - and that's why I'm completely in the dark, cause I've never dated anyone (cue blush!)
Here's me bearing all for strangers, telling you my life story - and why am I doing this? I don't know. Maybe I feel that if I shout my problems through the foghorn we call the internet, someone, somewhere will help me?
Take the boy I like - let's call him Oberon because I'm not about to broadcast it! Maybe one day I'll give him this URL and he'll read this post and he will feel the same way; but as an inexperienced teenager am I brave enough to let him see?
So, Oberon. I really like him - not even joking, being completely truthful- and I know he likes me too because he's admitted it to me. The thing is; now I know he likes me, what happens next? Are we just going to flirt over Facebook and BBM and then have normal (if you could call our topics of conversation normal) conversations in real life? When is one of us finally going to stop being nervous and ask the other one out?
The truth is, I don't know. It could be today, tomorrow (if he wasn't in isolation all day for slapping someone, which is not actually as bad as it sounds so don't go thinking he's some psycho), it could be the day after, or the day after that. It might not be until February 2017, or it might be never.
That's the beauty of life. There's so many unanswered questions; so many what ifs, and buts, but surely that just inspires?
All these unknown questions, all the mysteries of the world; embrace them like old friends, and treat them as good things.
These mysteries are what make life exciting, fun, they make you want to live forever to find out the answers. And if they never get answered, well that's something that you can let your imagination free on.
I'll give you a question to think about: what is the meaning of life?
Have fun figuring it out ;)
Just another inquisitive teenager xo
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